I'm baaaaack!

Ok guys, this is going to be short and sweet, for the reals this time :) I came home yesterday and am SO glad to be home. Erik is doing an amazing job taking care of me and has been so extremely supportive through this surgery and everything that has followed. He admitted to me the other day that he was a little scared to post on my blog the other day (I'm pretty honest about what it contains and he can read it anytime he wants), but said you guys were really awesome :) (I of course had to give him a hard time about his spelling because...well, that's just me and he kind of expects it ;) Seriously though, the guy was put through the ringer the day of surgery and if you had seen the beaming smile on his face when he saw me out of recovery (he looked like he had just won the lotto/experienced the best Christmas of his life), you would have been very touched. I could immediately see all the relief, excitement, and hope in his eyes and it really did remind me what a sweetheart he is!! Too cute!

I have to thank so many of you for your support and encouragement over the past 18 months while I made my last ditch effort to get this weight off without surgery. It was never something that I took lightly and while I wish I could have done it without surgery, I can tell you that going the surgical route is definitely NOT the easy way out. I've never been prouder of myself for following through on something that truly terrified me. I knew it had to be done though, I think you guys knew it too. Now, I am genuinely looking forward to watching my body shrink as I start the real work of this journey. When I went into the hospital, I was 417 and some change. Yesterday I was at 421 (most likely due to all the fluids and gas they pumped me up with). Today, I am 413 and some change. I haven't been below 420 since 2001 and looking at my stomach today, I'm starting to see the balloon start to deflate and it is SO EXCITING!!! One of the things I wasn't looking forward to was the shape of my body as the weight started coming off. I know what to expect and it isn't pretty, but today I discovered that I am rejoicing in EVERY change I'm seeing right now because gradually, I'm going to get ME back. So what if it is a flabby version of me if I can do my own grocery shopping, an hour long workout at the gym, ride a roller coaster with Tanner or take those salsa lessons I've secretly wanted to take for so long?? "Let the flab fly" is my battle cry for today :) I can't wait to see more....

P.S. Some of this blog was brought to you by Hydrocodone Bitartrate and acetaminophen, so I can't be held completely responsible for grammar/spelling/etc or content :)