DAY 8:

Today was pretty uneventful. I'm still trying to get one of my good friends to join the gym I want to go to. We used to go together, but she couldn't afford it and then I stopped going and blah, blah, blah. She weighs a bit less than I do, but she's shorter and she is beginning to head down the same path I did. I think the one thing that saves her right now is that she has a young daughter who keeps her busy. I just don't think she's ready to really commit to making that sort of change in her life. Like me, her mouth says she wants to, but her actions say otherwise. So, for now...I'm just going to have to drop it with her. Maybe as I get more weight off and start feeling better, she'll want to follow suit.

So, I'm back to square one when it comes to getting to the gym. Frustrating. The main reason I want to go is #1: I want to be able to take Tanner with me and get him more involved. #2: I'm scared of injuring myself and I know the fitness guy there could help me set up a strength training program that could help me get my strength back without risking an injury which could sideline me for quite a while. I can think up exercises to do for my upper body. We have a weight bench and we even have some cool weights that we bought years ago. I know what to do with them. I can also do pushups against the wall, work with soup cans and arm raises, etc. I even started doing some modified crunches using the weight bench. I put it at an angle where I'm leaning back a bit and pull myself upward into a sitting position. Believe me, after about 20 I feel it burning in my abs so it is doing something. I'm going to continue those until I can get on the floor.

I figure, for now...the back exercises, the wall pushups, the modified crunches..these will keep me plenty busy. As a side note...to those of you who might think I'm not pushing myself hard enough, know that it is mainly because I'm scared to death of hurting myself. I'm worried about getting shin splints or a pulled muscle; pulling my back out or injuring my knee. Any one of those things could not only sideline me for quite a while, but they can also make it even more difficult to get going again when whatever I screw up heals itself. By then, I will have lost even more muscle tone and I'm telling you...if I lose anymore muscle tone, I'm not going to be able to get out of bed or out of a chair without assistance.

Anyway, Here's what I accomplished today. You can see my physical activity notes below what I ate. Let me know if you can't see this. Looking forward to tomorrow.